It's a no working day for Blue Butterfly today. After done with her cooking and house cleaning, Blue Butterfly decided to go to Novena Church to pray and pour out her sadness. Church is the only place where Blue Butterfly can go to calm herself and to cope with her pain.
After 1 hour of praying, Blue Butterfly decided to walk to the Novena Square. In the middle of the walk, Blue Butterfly was suddenly shocked by the honking of a car. When Blue Butterfly saw to the right, it was a car which nearly bumped into her. It's not the driver's fault because Blue Butterfly kept walking straight until she ignored the traffic light.
Suddenly Blue Butterfly's heart pumping very fast until she could not breathe. There was a thought in her mind for a second that it will be good if the car bumped into her, so that she can faint, then wake up with memory loss. It will be the fastest way to let go all of her pain.
Fortunately, God wakes Blue Butterfly up that She thanks God million times for saving her from the car accident. In fact, this is the second time God saves her from car accident. The first time was about 2-3 months ago.
After that, Blue Butterfly canceled to go to the Novena Square and straightly going back home with pumping heart.....Why Blue Butterfly's life is full with disaster recently??? But God teach His people to be patient and surrender to Him....
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
ACTUAL LOVE
What is love for Blue Butterfly???
Love is the most beautiful thing, yet the most painful thing to experience. Blue Butterfly once told a friend that her dreams is to become a good housewife for her husband and a good mother for her own children. But, just by the time Blue Butterfly feels how great the love she is having, She must face with the reality that she should let go. That's why Love is beautiful, but yet it is painful...
Since today onwards, Blue Butterfly does not want to believe on any relationship, yet marriage because both of them are painful. At the end, something beautiful will leave you. Blue butterfly will give and share her love to those people who need it more. Besides that, Blue Butterfly has her cute and lovely students whom she can regard as her children. Maybe through this sufferings, God wants to teach Blue Butterfly that there are still so many other ways to show our love and to have love.
Love is the most beautiful thing, yet the most painful thing to experience. Blue Butterfly once told a friend that her dreams is to become a good housewife for her husband and a good mother for her own children. But, just by the time Blue Butterfly feels how great the love she is having, She must face with the reality that she should let go. That's why Love is beautiful, but yet it is painful...
Since today onwards, Blue Butterfly does not want to believe on any relationship, yet marriage because both of them are painful. At the end, something beautiful will leave you. Blue butterfly will give and share her love to those people who need it more. Besides that, Blue Butterfly has her cute and lovely students whom she can regard as her children. Maybe through this sufferings, God wants to teach Blue Butterfly that there are still so many other ways to show our love and to have love.
TODAY'S MENU
Today Blue Butterfly entertains herself at home by doing some cooking for her breakfast, lunch and dinner. It is good for Blue Butterfly's diet by doing cooking, as she is not able to eat much of her own cooking. So.....
MENU OF THE DAY:
1. Tender Stewed Beef Soup with Potatoes and Carrots
2. A Big Bowl of Fried Garlic Rice
3. A Big Cup of Healthy Honey Drink
MENU OF THE DAY:
1. Tender Stewed Beef Soup with Potatoes and Carrots
2. A Big Bowl of Fried Garlic Rice
3. A Big Cup of Healthy Honey Drink
FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON
Blue Butterfly's words:
What happen to me??? why the more I pray to God to show me something that can convince me not to choose you, but until today He keeps showing me something to convince me to choose you. Unfortunately, I think it's too late. Just give me your strength to let go, My Lord. Please do not show me anything more. Please don't...
LET GO THE BUTTERFLY
Do you know that Butterfly is actually as the same as human being??? They will find the most beautiful flower to stay and eat the honey from the flower, so that the flower will grow and grow. Butterfly is also a faithful one as they always stick with their couple. That's why they are called Butterfly lovers. But after some period of time, the Butterfly lovers will go their own way to find the other beautiful flowers......
Blue Butterfly learn some life lesson today. In life, we always try to find or buy things that we really love so much. We always try to find places and friends that we are comfortable with. And by the time we find them, we absolutely will hold on them tightly, so that nobody can have them.
Unfortunately it's not always happening in our real life. Sometimes in our life, we must learn to let go things, although they are something that we love so much. Maybe by letting go, we can get better things or those things can be owned by somebody else who deserve them more.
At the end, although you really can not let go, you must pray hard to let go......
So, Blue Butterfly decides to let go her EE Butterfly, so that EE Butterfly can get freedom and can experience better things.......GOODBYE EE Butterfly.....you are free now.....I'm letting you go already.....
Blue Butterfly learn some life lesson today. In life, we always try to find or buy things that we really love so much. We always try to find places and friends that we are comfortable with. And by the time we find them, we absolutely will hold on them tightly, so that nobody can have them.
Unfortunately it's not always happening in our real life. Sometimes in our life, we must learn to let go things, although they are something that we love so much. Maybe by letting go, we can get better things or those things can be owned by somebody else who deserve them more.
At the end, although you really can not let go, you must pray hard to let go......
So, Blue Butterfly decides to let go her EE Butterfly, so that EE Butterfly can get freedom and can experience better things.......GOODBYE EE Butterfly.....you are free now.....I'm letting you go already.....
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Friday, July 24, 2009
NICE AND ROMANTIC SONG TO SLEEP
Here is Blue Butterfly favourite song to accompany her to sleep at night. Sounds very calm and romantic. Very suitable for candle light dinner. hehehe....
KARAOKE DAY
Today Blue Butterfly starts to refresh and enjoy her life and her emptyness at home by singing karaoke. hehehehe.....can you imagine a butterfly is singing???? it is cute, isn't it??
It's actually not a proper karaoke. Blue Butterfly just plays the song list in her itune, then starts to sing and imitate the original singer's voice. heheheh...it's quite entertaining. So for the other butterflies who feel lonely and scared while you are alone at home, this trick is working.
TRY IT !!!
At the same time, Blue Butterfly sings the karaoke and cook for her lunch and dinner.
MENU OF THE DAY :
1. Shreded Chicken Soup with Cheewey Fish Balls
2. Grilled Sutchi Fish Fillet in Oyster and Dark Soy Sauce
3. One Big Bowl of Fragrance Thailand Rice
4. One Big Cup of Healthy Sweet Honey Drink
5. Healthy Sweet Papaya
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
MENU OF THE DAY
Blue Butterfly was cooking this morning for her lunch and dinner.....
Menu of the day :
1. Pork Ribs Soup with Potatoes and Carrots
2. Fried Garlic Chicken Sausage with Oyster Sauce and Dark Soy Sauce
3. Fried Green Vegetable with Garlic Eggs in Salty Sauce
4. One Bowl of Fragrance Thailand Rice
5. One Big Cup of Healthy Sweet Honey Drink
Menu of the day :
1. Pork Ribs Soup with Potatoes and Carrots
2. Fried Garlic Chicken Sausage with Oyster Sauce and Dark Soy Sauce
3. Fried Green Vegetable with Garlic Eggs in Salty Sauce
4. One Bowl of Fragrance Thailand Rice
5. One Big Cup of Healthy Sweet Honey Drink
MY LIFE FOR NOW
Blue Butterfly recently realise that she decides to live her life by herself for now. She decides to stay closer to God, responsible to her job and do more social work or any activities which serve God. Sometimes God creates His people to stay by herself because He knows it is better for them. So for now, Blue Butterfly wants to accept that offer.
What is the true feeling of pain???
So many things happened in the life of Blue Butterfly recently which taught her a lesson about the true feeling of painfulness. It's not about being failed from exam or has not enough money. It's more than that........
Do you know how painful is it when you have somebody you love so much with all your heart, but at the end you must let go because of some reasons that you yourself actually can not accept?
Do you know how extremely painful is it when someone you love so much and someone whom you still put hope on is actually trying to let you go and trying to stay away from you and trying to ignore you day by day?
Do you know how painful is it when you text someone you love so much, but that people is not keen to reply back and do not care about you as much as it used to be?
Do you know how painful is it when you are trying to explain what actually can make you happy, but those people can not accept your thoughts and say you are actually know nothing?
Do you know how painful is it when you feel lonely, scared in the middle of the night and really need someone to talk, but actually there is no one at home for you to go to, then you must comfort yourself and cope with those burdens by yourself?
Do you know how painful is it when you eat your breakfast, lunch and dinner by yourself?
Do you know how painful is it when you cook so much nice food by yourself, but there is no one to try out your cooking?
Do you know how painful is it when you actually realise that you had not talk to anyone for the whole day?
Do you know how painful is it when you look around in your house and you only can find computer, tv, table and chairs around you?
Do you know how painful is it when you have no place to socialise with?
Do you know how painful is it when you invite your friends to have dinner at your house for your coming birthday, but only few of them can make it?
Do you know how painful is it when you actually typing on your computer and tears just coming out from your eyes?
So for all the butterflies in the world. If none of you have experienced such things in your life, it means that you are very fortunate and do not say that you feel painful. But, although Blue Butterfly had experienced those unfortunate events in her life, She still wants to believe that God is still with her and she must pray, sacrifice and be patient.
Do you know how painful is it when you have somebody you love so much with all your heart, but at the end you must let go because of some reasons that you yourself actually can not accept?
Do you know how extremely painful is it when someone you love so much and someone whom you still put hope on is actually trying to let you go and trying to stay away from you and trying to ignore you day by day?
Do you know how painful is it when you text someone you love so much, but that people is not keen to reply back and do not care about you as much as it used to be?
Do you know how painful is it when you are trying to explain what actually can make you happy, but those people can not accept your thoughts and say you are actually know nothing?
Do you know how painful is it when you feel lonely, scared in the middle of the night and really need someone to talk, but actually there is no one at home for you to go to, then you must comfort yourself and cope with those burdens by yourself?
Do you know how painful is it when you eat your breakfast, lunch and dinner by yourself?
Do you know how painful is it when you cook so much nice food by yourself, but there is no one to try out your cooking?
Do you know how painful is it when you actually realise that you had not talk to anyone for the whole day?
Do you know how painful is it when you look around in your house and you only can find computer, tv, table and chairs around you?
Do you know how painful is it when you have no place to socialise with?
Do you know how painful is it when you invite your friends to have dinner at your house for your coming birthday, but only few of them can make it?
Do you know how painful is it when you actually typing on your computer and tears just coming out from your eyes?
So for all the butterflies in the world. If none of you have experienced such things in your life, it means that you are very fortunate and do not say that you feel painful. But, although Blue Butterfly had experienced those unfortunate events in her life, She still wants to believe that God is still with her and she must pray, sacrifice and be patient.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
I HATE MYSELF AND MY LIFE
Blue Butterfly said...
" I just hate myself and my life so much because I am not happy with what I have done and what I have gone through. So...I just hate my life and my self. I make so many people dissapointed, I make so many people angry with me, I make so many people cry and feel painful, I make so many people worried and I make myself feeling unhappy. I am a bad person....really a bad person. So all of you just becareful. Stay away from me ".
" I just hate myself and my life so much because I am not happy with what I have done and what I have gone through. So...I just hate my life and my self. I make so many people dissapointed, I make so many people angry with me, I make so many people cry and feel painful, I make so many people worried and I make myself feeling unhappy. I am a bad person....really a bad person. So all of you just becareful. Stay away from me ".
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