Baptism of The Holy Spirit is the answer of all the questions that Blue Butterfly had ever asked to God during her DISASTER DAY.
The day after her Disaster Day, Blue Butterfly was having lunch with her special E.E. Butterfly at the nearby shopping centre. E.E. Butterfly kept convinced Blue Butterfly that he heard God said He wanted to teach Blue Butterfly something through this pain that she was suffering. After lots of sharing and talking, Blue Butterfly suddenly said to E.E.Butterfly that God wants her to see the life in the real world and wants her to become a good teacher in the future. But she wasn't sure about that yet. Then, E.E. Butterfly asked her to join him to the church that afternoon to let go all of the pain. At the same time, E.E. Butterfly was going to give a talk about Baptism of The Holy Spirit on that day among the church youth community. So, Blue Butterfly followed to the church. During the trip to the church, E.E. Butterfly kept explaining about Baptism of Holy Spirit and what they were going to do later on. Then, Blue Butterfly said to E.E. Butterfly that she will just sit down there and watch. But, E.E. Butterfly answered wisely that it was actually not a show to watch, but it was a miracle to feel. So, E.E. Butterfly said that maybe later Blue Butterfly will feel the Holy Spirit from God and will change her mind. Blue Butterfly nodded quietly with all of the pain in her heart.
Finally, we arrived in the church at 3pm. Blue Butterfly was introduced to some new friends who are very friendly and warmly welcomed her coming. Then, the Pray and Worship started. Only by the first prayer and hymns by the community leader, the tears had filled and run down over the face of Blue Butterfly. Blue Butterfly cried because she felt so sad and tired from the pain that she was suffering and she urged to see that God will show His way and help her to go through all of this pain. Blue Butterfly kept crying in every prayer and worship until it had finished. After the prayer and worship, E.E. Butterfly shared his life experience in regaining his Faith to God and how he finally felt the work of the Holy Spirit by taking him closer and closer to God, although he has no logic reason about the presence of God. The talk by E.E. Butterfly gave some idea to Blue Butterfly about the Baptism of Holy Spirit.
After the Praise and Worship session, everybody was divided into 5-6 people in a group with two group leaders each. The purpose of this group division is for us to have time to share with each other about our experience with God or any other questions that we are uncertain about. Blue Butterfly was not a person who was willing to share her personal life to unfamiliar people. But after hearing other people experiences, Blue Butterfly suddenly hear the sound which opened her heart and mind about all the pain that she was suffering and how God deeply loves her. After that, Blue Butterfly urged to open her mouth and share all of her pain in tears....
" I am suffering a deep pain and failure right now which I know those pain happened because of injustice things in my environment. I keep asking God why He gives me such painful moment meanwhile I always believe and pray to Him. Then, I flash back to my previous believes on Him since young. I realise something that I was baptised, believe in God and go to church everyday are because my Mother and my teachers taught me to do so. And I always said that God is very kind because during this time I always experienced the good things that happened in my life. But I actually did not feel and understand the actual meaning of God's love and presence in my life. I don't even know why I must go to church. To get good things??? The answer is "NO". God gives me such deep pain, so that I can be better and stronger person who always depend and closer to Him. God actually loves me so much that in this disaster situation, He never leaves me alone. He surrounds me with the love and courage from my family, my boyfriend, my teachers and my friends. He even brings me to this youth community to find all of the answers. God shows me that life is actually very painful, therefore we must always believe and walk together with Him. God knows that I have the passion to become a teacher, and therefore He teaches me how to become a good teacher in the future. Now I really feel the love and presence of God in my life and I believe this is what Baptism of The Holy Spirit means to me ".
The last session of this whole retreat is the Praying Over session, whereby everybody in each group was prayed by their group leaders. Blue Butterfly kept crying to God and she felt more relieve from her pain after that.
The day after her Disaster Day, Blue Butterfly was having lunch with her special E.E. Butterfly at the nearby shopping centre. E.E. Butterfly kept convinced Blue Butterfly that he heard God said He wanted to teach Blue Butterfly something through this pain that she was suffering. After lots of sharing and talking, Blue Butterfly suddenly said to E.E.Butterfly that God wants her to see the life in the real world and wants her to become a good teacher in the future. But she wasn't sure about that yet. Then, E.E. Butterfly asked her to join him to the church that afternoon to let go all of the pain. At the same time, E.E. Butterfly was going to give a talk about Baptism of The Holy Spirit on that day among the church youth community. So, Blue Butterfly followed to the church. During the trip to the church, E.E. Butterfly kept explaining about Baptism of Holy Spirit and what they were going to do later on. Then, Blue Butterfly said to E.E. Butterfly that she will just sit down there and watch. But, E.E. Butterfly answered wisely that it was actually not a show to watch, but it was a miracle to feel. So, E.E. Butterfly said that maybe later Blue Butterfly will feel the Holy Spirit from God and will change her mind. Blue Butterfly nodded quietly with all of the pain in her heart.
Finally, we arrived in the church at 3pm. Blue Butterfly was introduced to some new friends who are very friendly and warmly welcomed her coming. Then, the Pray and Worship started. Only by the first prayer and hymns by the community leader, the tears had filled and run down over the face of Blue Butterfly. Blue Butterfly cried because she felt so sad and tired from the pain that she was suffering and she urged to see that God will show His way and help her to go through all of this pain. Blue Butterfly kept crying in every prayer and worship until it had finished. After the prayer and worship, E.E. Butterfly shared his life experience in regaining his Faith to God and how he finally felt the work of the Holy Spirit by taking him closer and closer to God, although he has no logic reason about the presence of God. The talk by E.E. Butterfly gave some idea to Blue Butterfly about the Baptism of Holy Spirit.
After the Praise and Worship session, everybody was divided into 5-6 people in a group with two group leaders each. The purpose of this group division is for us to have time to share with each other about our experience with God or any other questions that we are uncertain about. Blue Butterfly was not a person who was willing to share her personal life to unfamiliar people. But after hearing other people experiences, Blue Butterfly suddenly hear the sound which opened her heart and mind about all the pain that she was suffering and how God deeply loves her. After that, Blue Butterfly urged to open her mouth and share all of her pain in tears....
" I am suffering a deep pain and failure right now which I know those pain happened because of injustice things in my environment. I keep asking God why He gives me such painful moment meanwhile I always believe and pray to Him. Then, I flash back to my previous believes on Him since young. I realise something that I was baptised, believe in God and go to church everyday are because my Mother and my teachers taught me to do so. And I always said that God is very kind because during this time I always experienced the good things that happened in my life. But I actually did not feel and understand the actual meaning of God's love and presence in my life. I don't even know why I must go to church. To get good things??? The answer is "NO". God gives me such deep pain, so that I can be better and stronger person who always depend and closer to Him. God actually loves me so much that in this disaster situation, He never leaves me alone. He surrounds me with the love and courage from my family, my boyfriend, my teachers and my friends. He even brings me to this youth community to find all of the answers. God shows me that life is actually very painful, therefore we must always believe and walk together with Him. God knows that I have the passion to become a teacher, and therefore He teaches me how to become a good teacher in the future. Now I really feel the love and presence of God in my life and I believe this is what Baptism of The Holy Spirit means to me ".
The last session of this whole retreat is the Praying Over session, whereby everybody in each group was prayed by their group leaders. Blue Butterfly kept crying to God and she felt more relieve from her pain after that.
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